-Linkin Park
Whoo! What do you get when you ignore your blog for a few months?? A boring blog. Wow. I have either become super boring and dont have anything to blog about anymore, or I am sooo lazy that I cant just throw some random thoughts up every now and then. You'll have to take your pick on which it is, because I'm really not sure....
Now for updates!
More than halfway through my second semester of college! Only 7 weeks of being a freshman left! Oh how good that feels... Being the youngest by 5 years in my group, being the baby has benefits and downsides. Mostly, though, it hasnt mattered. I'm just 'one of the guys' :)
So, what have I learned this semester? The importance of actually paying attention to school. I cant believe what a slacker I've been this semester. It has gotten better since midterms, but for 57 days in a row, I was with friends for a good majority of the day. I can say, though, that I have skipped class less number of times this semester than last. I say thats a win.
Spring Break this year will not leave much to be desired. At the last minute (almost the last minute... It could have been more last minute, but this is the least planning I've ever done for a trip) I decided going to San Francisco would be a good adventure to put in the book, so I bought a ticket and off I go! Next Saturday I fly away to enjoy the wonderous San Fran with my gorgeous aunt, Annelise. Couldnt be more excited! I realized late last night that I have never been to San Francisco. I mean, not REALLY. I remember being there when I was 3 and I saw a play there last year, but we took the train in, walked about 10 yards to the theater, and took the train back out. For all I saw, it could have been Anywhere, USA. You better believe there will be pictures to follow. Cant wait for this Photo Op!
So there have been many changes these last few months that I have been away. For one, I have become interested in hockey. Me. The girl that once said, "Hockey is for guys that didnt make the football team and now they're mad about it". What did I know? Another change, I enjoy playing Call of Duty Black Ops. What? Yes, you heard that right. Sports and video games, what have I become? You have 'the guys' to thank for that; Justin, Jeremy, Richard, Cris, and Levi-the best 5 older brothers a girl could ask for. Their differences make them the ultimate sibling. I will never be unsafe again. The last change (off the top of my head, at least) is that I have applied for a new job. I'll know in a few weeks if I got it for reals. If I did, "Hello new car!!!"
It seems like so much has changed but at the same time everything is the same. I have so many plans for the future, for one step ahead, that it is hard to focus on the here and now, no matter what it is. In classes, I focus on the next test, next homework. With friends, I focus on our next plan. At home, I focus on my next paycheck, next class, next semester, next week, next plan, next month. I've found that no matter where I am, I'm relying on my future self to be the happy one, even though I'm not looking very far ahead. I need to stop living like this. "Men are that they might have Joy." I apologized to the Lord with reference to this scripture recently. I came to the realization that I was not being joyful and happy and it was my own fault. Living for the next big thing isnt what life is about and learning to enjoy the here and now is what will make one's life worth while; give it substance and meaning. Someone with an empty, sad life has no one to blame but themselves. I've seen many happy people that had nothing at all. So much hurt and destruction can be overcome by a smile, a good attitude.
With this in mine, I start over again and strive for a joyous, happy life.
Peace and Love.
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