Admirations and Adorations

"Look how they shine for you, and all the things you do."

-Coldplay

So I have found a hobby that doesn't cost anything. I am searching for more, because I am not satisfied that this is the only one out there and I am sure I can do better than that. But, on to my hobby that doesn't cost anything.

I have recently become addicted to stumbleupon.com.

Do. Not. Visit. This. Site.

You will become addicted. Plain and simple. But since there is little or no hope for me now, I will continue with my stumbling.

Ever since forever I have wanted to be a good photographer. My mom, as well as others, have told me that it comes naturally to me, so when I have the money and the means, I am going to splurge for a camera that will take my photography to the next level. This, however, is not a free hobby. It is a very expensive hobby.

For now I will look lustfully on the work of others:

(This is NOT my work, it is the work of people I found on stumbleupon.com. I do not claim this as my work.)

For the time being, I will have to settle for being just mediocre. I'm alright with that. Here are a few of my own pieces from over the years.....

(This IS my work.)

I will get better. For now I will just use my imagination and do things the way I see fit, rather than the way people think it should be done. After all, isnt that what Art is?

Lately I have been very busy with school and not so busy with work.

Life is awesome, do it with a smile.

Loves and kisses!

Words to Live By

"Even if you cannot hear my voice, I'll be right beside you, dear."

-Snow Patrol

Its amazing how much you learn when sincerely trying to become a better person. Not retracing, erasing, or reforming any footsteps- just heading in a new direction for a new destination.

I am definitely going through a new experience and I will do it at the best of my abilities. Choices lead to consequences and now I face the consequences. You can be sure I will be coming away from this experience with a lesson learned and a new appreciation for the Atonement.

This is my knowledge increase and comfort crutch for today:

"Christ is not waiting for us to be perfect. Perfect people don't need a Savior. He came to save his people in their imperfections. He is the Lord of the living, and the living make mistakes. He's not embarrassed by us, angry at us, or shocked. He wants us in our brokenness, in our unhappiness, in our guilt and our grief."

-Chieko N. Okazaki

That is all.

Growing Better, Becoming Me

"I'll tell you one thing, it's so much better when we're together."

-Jack Johnson

I have learned a lot of things from the path I've taken in life, but one of the most important, I think, is to learn to love what you are given. I have learned to love my crazy family. All of them, in whatever form they came into my life. My family used to be small, now it is huge and covers almost every form of 'pieced together' that there ever was. I wouldnt trade them for anything.

Explaining my family to people can get very frustrating. They werent what I was expecting at any time in my life but now that I have them they are the biggest blessings in my life. We laugh together and go through hard times together. Each of my family members gives me something new to add to "Me". I love my family. I cant wait for the future when my family is even bigger and crazier and buried in the middle is me and the person I hope to become, surrounded by amazing people that know me and love me anyway. That is my definition of a family.

I could never explain to anyone the role that each of my family members has played in my life. Although most of my family is acquired by marriage, they have loved me and given me something I never would have had before. I'm sad that my picture is missing Tejitu because I have grown so close to each of my sisters. They are amazing and every day of life with them is such a blessing. I dont know how I lived without them.

The past week has definitely been an interesting one. Its a good thing I didnt have to work all week because of all the homework and emotional stress I was under this week. I will be the first to say that just when you think something is going to get easier and better, it gets harder. Much harder. I am so grateful to have one of my amazing friends that helped me every step of the way and has cared so much about me. You know who you are. Thank you. :]

I'm expecting a hard day tomorrow..... I'll keep my head high and make it through.

Tears to better the path of tomorrow.