New Adventures

"Where are we? What the hell is going on?"

-Imogen Heap

Its amazing how far you can go with a little faith and a big jump.

I. Love. College.

I thought the work load, the schedule, working, the teachers, the people, the buildings, and the campus would all be overwhelming. They are. It isnt nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be though. So far I've gotten out of my comfort zone just enough to create a new comfort zone that eventually is sure to become my future self. I have a lot of learning, maturing, and growing to do so I can be in the right place at the right time. :]

All in all, this was a very good week. I didnt get much sleep, I worked 2 extra nights, and got lots of blisters on my feet, but I can tell its the start of something great. Whether or not my feet make it through 7 hours of work tomorrow... Well I will let you know the end of that battle.

Off to play games with the ward! They told me to get involved.

Here is me getting out of my comfort zone to meet new people.

The Calm Before the Storm

"Its the moment of truth, and the moment to lie. The moment to live, and the moment to die. Its the moment to fight."

-30 Seconds to Mars

Well not much to say about this one... School starts tomorrow. After weeks of boring transitions, here's the big one that determines where people go, who they become, and to whom they become married. (Jk, its going to be many years before that happens...)

Too many emotions to even be sure what is going on. I wish I knew what all I was supposed to be doing. Ah well, I'll get the hang of it. I like trying new things anyway.

Work is good, church is good, life is pretty good.

Check back tomorrow after school, work, and life.

You Cry Until You Laugh

"Affliction- A condition of pain, suffering, or distress."
-Google
Oh how I love Google. Not this time though. My friend Heidee and I have an inside joke about 'diggin'. It comes from our seminary class sophomore year when a kid in our class was not getting the point our teacher was trying to make. Our teacher said "Dig!" and the guy said, "I'm diggin!" Well tonight, Heidee and I were, in a sense, 'diggin.'
1 Nephi 1:1 talks about afflictions. The topical guide would define affliction as 'Blessing; Gifts of God.' Sorry Google, you're misleading.... Well I started searching the deapths of my soul to find the meaning I was supposed to get out of this scripture that was presented to me, out of the blue, by a good friend. I realized, a trial does not become an affliction until we take the good, the blessing, and the lesson away with us. Affliction is a positive word. Affliction is looking towards the Lord and letting Him guide you, instead of turning away and wondering, "Why me, why now?" Why couldnt I have realized this 2 days ago? Trial and error, I suppose. (No pun intended).
In other news, I have a great singles ward, my bathroom now has a door, and for those of you wondering, I got my textbooks ordered. :] Tejitu and I had a lovely afternoon together of her bossing me around and me making fun of her. She's content playing by herself with anything she gets her hands on and I'm content just watching her play. This afternoon she played with a necklace, a small box lid, and two pieces of plastic for at least half an hour. She makes my day.
I'm still looking for that cost-free hobby. I have an idea or two....
Here's to making trials into afflictions.

Tears for Fears

"I built my castle on a beach.... watchin' as it slid into the sea."
-A Fine Frenzy
I admit it, I have a thing for sad songs. When I have no one else to rely on, I can always rely on the songs being there to be sad with me. I thrive on finding the saddest songs, listening to them over and over until they become my own, and then holding on to them until I find one that is even more sad than the one before. My sad song right now says, 'And we watch and wait and do nothing but sigh and hope that everything is gonna turn alright.' Thats me right now. Even as everything falls just into place, everything around it just falls apart.
If I had a legit checklist of things that had to be done before the end of this Summer, it would have on it: moving (check), getting a job (check), signing up for classes (check), going to my singles ward (check), get my books (not check...) and probably a few other things. I guess if I can show for getting the important things done, it doesnt matter that I dont have anyone. I have no one. Just when I thought my relationships with everyone were the strongest, they fail. People I thought I could always rely on....
I am going to find a hobby.
More later on hobbys that dont cost anything. The world must be told if one exists.

Oreo Family

"Saying funny things that you have never heard, do you know what it's all about, are you brave enough to figure out"
-Kerli

Meet my family. We (minus Andrew) make up the kids of my family. Youngest to oldest, Tejitu, Genet, Eric, Melissa, and Andrew, there is a whole 18 years between the youngest and oldest of the family. Genet and Tejitu were adopted from Ethiopia in 2008, and they have definately adapted to they're new family and new life. As crazy and mixed up as my family is, I love them a lot and the hard situations have given me a strength that I think a lot of people dont ever have.

That strength will take me to far places, and I love myself for it. I have learned determination and to not settle for what isnt good enough. I have countless goals for the future and I will definately do great things because of the background I have and how I have been taught. The Dalai Lama said in his book 'Essential Teachings', "With a noble mind, pure and generous, we will spread joy around us, we will feel great peace and we will be able to communicate that to others." Everyone deserves to be happy and be great, they just need to learn to find it. Sometimes we need to bring that out in others.

Let yourself be happy. Let yourself be great.

Smile now and smile for the future.