Tears for Fears

"I built my castle on a beach.... watchin' as it slid into the sea."
-A Fine Frenzy
I admit it, I have a thing for sad songs. When I have no one else to rely on, I can always rely on the songs being there to be sad with me. I thrive on finding the saddest songs, listening to them over and over until they become my own, and then holding on to them until I find one that is even more sad than the one before. My sad song right now says, 'And we watch and wait and do nothing but sigh and hope that everything is gonna turn alright.' Thats me right now. Even as everything falls just into place, everything around it just falls apart.
If I had a legit checklist of things that had to be done before the end of this Summer, it would have on it: moving (check), getting a job (check), signing up for classes (check), going to my singles ward (check), get my books (not check...) and probably a few other things. I guess if I can show for getting the important things done, it doesnt matter that I dont have anyone. I have no one. Just when I thought my relationships with everyone were the strongest, they fail. People I thought I could always rely on....
I am going to find a hobby.
More later on hobbys that dont cost anything. The world must be told if one exists.