Learning to Express

"Very late at night and in the morning light, nobody knows me at all."

-The Weepies

Here is some poetry I've written the last few months. Its in the format I wrote it in, its nothing special, I just want it saved in a more secure spot and this seemed good enough. I dont believe in titles for my poetry, so they'll just be numbered.

1.

i'll write to you

if you write me back.

i'll love you

if you love me back.

2.
i've become the one i never thought i'd be

i’ve started seeing ways i never thought i’d see
i’ve begun saying things i never thought i’d say
i’ve turned into a romantic and
i’ve fallen in love with you

3.
i’ll write you letters
and make you smile;
you marry me and
hold me tight.
i’ll send you things
that make you
laugh;
you teach me how
to love and be
loved.

4.
i smile when i’m
reminded of you and
i am
reminded of you when i
smile.
i’m all smiles today,
i hope you are too.

Enjoy.

<3

-M

Thinking of You

"I think that possibly maybe I've fallen for you"

-Landon Pigg

There is a certain reverence that comes while making plans. Looking to the future creates a bright picture, with details, oh so many details. The details are not to be overlooked. The creation of a dream, the potential of a future is soon the only thing that seems important. The here, the now, the brushstrokes leading to the final picture seem to take forever.

Nothing is as frustrating as seeing a great potential and being told to wait for it. "Wait just a little longer, it'll be worth it", they say. While you know exactly what they're talking about and why they say such things, it makes waiting no less impossible. Many times, you're not allowed to see a full potential of something. You know it will be good, but you cant comprehend so you're unaware of how good it will be when the waiting is over. Other times, however, you know exactly how good it will be when the wait is over.

This is another post to You. I've decided to wait. I am waiting 10 long months, toughing out the cold winter of loneliness and setting my sights on you. You're becoming You and I'm becoming Me, so the time apart is necessary and of utmost importance, but it does not make waiting any less difficult. I know you, you know me. I know how amazing you are. I have no problem waiting for you, its not the You I'm struggling to wait for. Waiting was not a hard decision to make. The physical waiting is what I will struggle with. 10 months is a long time to watch friends and family get married and start their lives. While I dont yet know what the future has in store for Us, I know the potential for greatness is there. We will both achieve great things in life, and I cant wait to find out if we will be great together.

I've never felt so right about a decision in my life. I was very careful each step of the way making this decision, and I know I will never regret it. I couldnt be more grateful and proud of your decision to serve the Lord. You're already an amazing man, I cant wait to be with the You that will come home from Mississippi. I want there to always be an Us. I dont have you yet, but someday I hope you'll choose me too, so we can be together.

Patiently waiting.

Love always,

M