Sunday, June 20, 2010

Here We Go Again

"What doesnt kill you makes you stronger."
-Kanye West
Boy has this quote applied to me the past two weeks. Sun, sun, and more sun. Hauling heavy boxes all over. Hiking up steep canyon walls. Welcome to the Grand Canyon. For 12 days I rafted down the Grand Canyon with my brother, my dad, and 5 other people. It was very fun and at times very unenjoyable. My little weak muscles have become a little stronger and my altitude sickness has been challenged and overcome once again. A few years ago I found out that I dont do well when I change altitude too quickly when I tried to climb a 14-thousand foot mountain with my dad. I now know that I can make it to the top next time.
This quote has also applied in relationships with some not-so friendly people the last few days. The blow of being so disrespected has past and now I'm going to forgive, forget, learn from it, and grow inspite of it. I took my time to grieve and now its time for me to step up and be the person I know I can be and that I know I should be. I am truely blessed to have the friends and family I do that have helped me through this so far. I know its not over yet but I'm doing my best to be uplifted rather than dragged down.
My mom's wedding is in 6 days and there is still so much to do. She handed me a to-do list a page long. Come to find out that was the to-do list for just yesterday. Last night we were out shopping until after 11. I still need to find an outfit. This week is going to be fun...
Finally, its time to start job and house hunting. I'm mostly excited. Partly terrified. This is really happening now. Its not the future anymore, its the present. Time to leave behind the familliar and step into the unknown. I'm so excited. All my changes are really happening now. I hope I can stay organized and keep up with the things that I need to do.
Through it all I'm sure I've become a better person than I was before. I have stepped out of one storm and into another. The adversity I've gone through isnt going to go away but I have become much stronger and been able to adapt and roll with the punches of everything that happens. Though my family is crazy and infuriating, I wouldnt trade it for anything because what I have learned from these trials is more than I could have learned from any other situation. It may not be good enough for some, but I know my potential and I know my faults. I wont let someone who doesnt know what they are talking about mess up my strength.
Its time to look forward, look up, and move on.
"...peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;"
-Doctrine and Covenants 121:7
Here's a smile for a rainy day. :]

Friday, June 4, 2010

One Last Goodbye

"Dont forget to remember me."
-Carrie Underwood This picture is one of my favorite senior pictures. I think it shows the Me that I'm afraid for people to see sometimes. This picture, taken by my fabulous aunt, Annelise LeCheminant, shows how happy I am right this second (minus a little cold). This morning my sweet boyfriend asked what I was doing and I said "running around like a crazy" and this was the complete truth. I was in 3 inch heels running everywhere. I quite literally ran into wal-mart to get money then ran into my school to get chords for graduation, which apparently make you special..... Then I grabbed my cap and gown and other essential items for the day and ran to my car and drove to Ogden. I was a little late for the line-up but we ended up standing for half an hour longer anyway so it didnt matter. As stressed as I was this morning, the day was totally worth it. It was an awesome graduation ceremony and it was interesting to see who actually made it this far. ;)
Except for the body-aches, the fever, and the tiredness, today was an awesome day. Its crazy to think that graduation came and went. I thought it would never come. As much as I hate being the center of attention most of the time, I liked it today.
I cant wait to see where all of the people I know from high school go in life. I'm so excited to see all the places we go. Even though I was so excited to be done, I'm even more excited to see where life takes me in the next few years. I cant wait!
To end this post, the best quote today,
"Are you getting married?"
-Tejitu