Let the Changes Begin!

"What happens next? I dare you to move"
-Switchfoot
I realize that I'm focused very much on beginnings. I didnt plan this. I thought I was being clever with this title, sort of like, "let the games begin!" only it was changes, because so much change is coming so quickly. Instead I just looked obsessed with that word. Haha. As for the changes. Tonight I tied lovely, frustrating, stupid bows on my mother's wedding invitations. We're all very excited. :) In just over three weeks, I graduate from high school. Do I really need to elaborate on that? College in the fall, moving out, getting a job, meeting new people, and growing up.
I've grown used to change and have come to find that I like the changes more than I like when things stay the same. After so many changes right in a row, you get to be a little concerned when the next change isnt coming fast enough because of what it may hold in store for you. Change isnt a bad word. Not in my book. Change does, however, mean that you cannot look back and cannot dwell on what "coulda", "shoulda", "woulda". That is the hardest part about change for me.
Over the past few weeks, I have found that planning for the future is one of the hardest things you can do. The future is too unknown to plan for. The unexpected is expected, throwing off any chance you had at plannig for it. Sometimes you feel like life is laughing in your face saying, "you didnt see that one comeing, did you?" Of course I have plans and of course I know where I want my life to go, but is it going to go as I want? No.
At church and at school we have been planning for any emergency that may happen. The most probable- an earthquake. We can plan as much as we want but we still dont know when it is going to happen. Planning for the future is smart, but frustrating. Patience is a virtue that I will be working for all my life.
Each time I take a moment to really focus on what I need to do for the changes that are soon to come, I become more at ease with the future. College seems a little less hard, and growing up seems a little less scary. The future is still unknown, but I'm more comfortable with it every time I accept it and look willingly forward to it.
Future, ready or not, here I come.